glorious flaw

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! *inserts prancing happy emoticon*

Ok, so call me lame but I’m documenting this so that I’ll actually take note of it. Basically, I’m not the healthiest eater in the world, and I’m a student so it’s difficult to get food I like without being stupidly expensive. BUT. I came up with a strategy, which isn’t the best, but y’know. I took note of things I consumed too much off - that were also more expensive and unneccessary. Like chocolate, orange juice (concentrated stuff), fizzy drinks and ice cream and the likes.

So I created a table, to keep track of things. If I went a day without any of the above, then each box for the “treat” would get a tick.. and I’d try going five days without them. At the weekend, I wouldn’t take count, but if I’d gone the week without and I wanted to have a treat then I would. Yeah, so I haven’t cancelled out chocolate, pop, etc completely.. I just don’t eat it as much as I did. I haven’t had ice cream in aaages. I do yearn for them, but it isn’t really bothering me now it’s been three weeks. I can sit and think “I’m hungry :(” but because I have no goodies in the cupboard, I can’t eat them.

But just now, I was getting my stuff together so I can go wash my clothes and I thought “Hey, lets try on these trousers I haven’t worn since I got here”… they were trousers I’d bought this time last year and they fitted me last year when I was a 12/14, but as summer approached they were getting too tight and I felt way too uncomfortable to be wearing them so they’ve sat in my wardrobe ever since :(

When I returned to Uni this year, I tried them on, and got upset that I hadn’t lost any weight over Summer… I’d probably put on some more, dammit… but today I tried them on again. I mean, they’re not really loose, but they fit me comfortably. I can wear them and they don’t feel tight. I mean, I don’t feel happy enough within myself to wear them in public, but I can wear them and it’s not tight. I was just like ‘Wow :|’ and it’s just a silly little thing that’s made my day ^_^

So I think I’ve lost a little weight in the last couple of weeks, and I want to continue that trend. I think these trousers are a size 14… and right now I’m a 14… I know that. But depending on where I go… sometimes I do have to get a 16 and it depresses the hell out of me because I’m fussy enough as it is, and it just sucks basically. Why the hell I’m talking about this in an online blog I don’t know :/

So yeah… I hope this continues, and I lose a little more weight and keep things that way. I know I have to do more than just have less chocolate and stuff but for someone who doesn’t have the greatest confidence in herself, it’s a good enough start for me!

*does happy dance*